While heading to Lowe’s for some stuff I needed to tame my lawn, I heard this segment on NPR. Bullying wasn’t a significant part of my youth. I was neither bullied nor was I a bully. So I didn’t necessarily related to this TED talk. That was until he came to the end and Shane Koyczan talked about Pain in life. Mr. Koyczan’s quote resonated with me in the same way a quote I recently read in a book resonated. In the book a character basically said “happiness, life promises the pursuit not the result.”
“Pain is part of this life. It just is. The worst part about pain isn’t that it hurts, it’s that it’s completely normal. We’re supposed to feel it. We are meant to endure difficulty. If for no other reason, than it gives us a reference point that allows us to navigate towards something better.” -Shane Koyczan
I’m not sure how I feel about embracing pain. I’ve done it so long that its basically a reflex. I have my moments of joy/happiness and lately I’m distrustful of them. There’s a part of me that relates to the pain in ways that I can’t relate to the positive emotions. The Pain justifies all the negative I believe about myself. Every new instance reinforces those beliefs. I know, intellectually, that I’m suppose to turn away from the pain and use the experience to place myself in a better place. That’s not what I do. I don’t know how. I would love to learn one day.